I will not act like a nutter this weekend!!

ok…..its over! My marriage is over! I still want my husband back but for now i need to accept its over! I need to go back to no contact!! Kids have no desire to see M at the moment. I hope that changes in the future but i think we need to spend some time re-grouping as a family of just three now!! I need to dig deep and find a way of maintaining no contact for at least this weekend! That will be a huge step for me!

I’ve googled ‘no contact rule’ a million times! Why am i so crap at doing it??? Contact with M at the moment is horrible, he doesn’t want me, doesn’t want to talk to me and i am just interrupting his new life!! How do you really do no contact!!

Well i last had a text conversation Friday evening with M (but in all fairness it was about money for my daughter camp). So i am NOT going to contact him today! If i have a drink later i will give my phone to one of my friends! Wish me luck!!  xx

http://www.exboyfriendrecovery.com/the-no-contact-rule/

Shite day, horrible texts and a dead cat!!

Text 11.08.13

me…Have you got your wedding ring on lol

yes i’ve got it back on already, i love you xxxx

love you too xxx

Text 12.08.13

Sorry i’m back late

thats ok glad you had a nice time, love you xxx

love you too xx

FAST FORWARD TWO WEEKS …………………………………..

27.08.13

Did you get paid for that job in Clevedon? M**** needs money for camp please! ive paid 190 need 80 xxx

None of your business, its my money, get a grip, go away

Why are you being so nasty? xxx

Go away, if i get the money its M****s money not yours!!

No thats fine, i will never ask again xx

Wow just wow!!! Who stole my husband and replaced him with this mean, nasty person! I want my husband back but not this one!!

Fallout is starting already i guess!!! Son is buying a car this w/e and doesn’t want M to help him buy it! In fact neither kids want to see him!! This is sooooo not good!!!

On a positive it looks like i have some extra work so hopefully i will be able to start paying all the bills!!

To the men out there…if you don’t love your wife anymore do not be a dick!! This can be done in a nice way without extra hurt!! He’ll be back, i know that! I just hope in the mean time he’s not so vile that i don’t want him back xxxxx

I feel ok and I’m not giving up!

Mummy tummy is full on anxiety! He loves her wow!!! He said he loved me last week!

I will not row or fight with him!!!

I still love him! The kids are devestated and don’t want to see him! I’m going to give them a few weeks to process it all before I push them to see him!

I love him, I’m not giving up hope! I will crack on with my life! I will keep busy, be a good mum, work hard but I will still love him! 

Xx