I understand that M doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I want him back but i am going to let him go! Gosh i can’t believe i’m saying those words but i am letting him go! I will not cry, beg him, ask him for support. He can have his new life and i am going to dig deep in my heart and let him go with no malice or spite! I love him but he doesn’t love me anymore FACT! Plus two affairs is two too many! And as i lay in my bed at night i know there is no going back! I know the damage is done! And i know i deserved more! I still want him back, so so so so so much but he’s done! He was able to break my heart twice!!
But…how can he walk away from the beautiful kids that were such a huge part of his life for so long! My daughter used to run into his arms when he got home and he would swing her around! My son as an adult (almost) choose to love him!
My daughter is off to camp and the thought of being out of contact with her causes me to feel anxious! I will miss her so much! She is the first person i hear in the morning when she shouts out ‘morning mum’ and at night i get the biggest cuddle ever and an ‘i love you mum’. How can anyone walk away from this ever?? My kids are so easy to be proud of…they are kind, loving, caring, polite and so beautiful! Walk away from our marriage M but not our kids please!
Its been a week today since we discovered he had a new girlfriend and he has made no contact with the kids at all!! Does he not consider that maybe they need a cuddle from him, that they need to hear that he still loves them???
Oh i don’t know! I am in love with a different M, not this one xx
I want my husband back 