Day Five (since my heart broke)

I know it’s really early days but i miss M. I hate having no contact with him! I am really starting to see the reality of this whole situation! I fear our marriage really is over for him! As i sit here i just don’t see a future without him! Don’t get me wrong i will cope and in time i’m sure i will meet someone else (don’t want too) but just not speaking to him for five days is horrible!

I would like to think he is led in bed thinking about me, missing me but…i know he’s not! He is planning his future without me! I love him, I love him, I LOVE HIM!!!!!!

What do i do? What can i do? Can i win him back? He loved me so much and now nothing! I can feel the panic deep within my heart, i can feel the tears at the back of my eyes, i feel sick, tired and so sad! xx